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i am terribly bored & restless! not becos i do not have anything to do, but i simply do not have the motivation to! it is a terrible feeling when you have to hand up a report over this weekend and i'm not done and do not have the motivation to do anymore.

PAIN PAIN PAIN PAIN PAIN

i wish to be mummified in medicated plasters for muscle aches! or soaking in a bath tub of deep heat rub!

just ran 4.4km yesterday evening.. okok..not ran but a combination of job-walk.. and now i am in this dire straits! i cringe at the sight of stairs, or any form of step/slight elevation..its torturous..

having completed 4.4km after 2 years of no-aerobic-exercise, except yoga, i feel like a log..but no choice..for the sake of my finisher medal, cert and t-shirt on the 24 aug 08, i shall press on.. at least to move as normally as possible for now..*urgh*

how on earth am i going to complete 10km within 1.5hr?! i can only DREAM and SPECULATE for now..

pain pain pain pain pain pain pain~

updated my wish list

yes, i've just updated my wish list.. gotten quite a number of things i wished for.. my blue label burberry bag..my estee lauder perfume.. etc.. actually thinking back i have gotten more than what i've wished for in terms of material stuff.. i was just lemming for a Miu Miu bag few months back and now my wish has come true.. somehow all these material things no longer matter as much..

its the wisdom and happiness that i yearn for now.. its the simple things that matter now..yet these are the things that are so intangible.. at least for material things, we can starve ourselves and be able to afford it someday but for things like these, it is never possible.

having said these, i have a permenant backache and feel my life is quite miserable. to-do-list filled with what other people are supposed to do..and yet those ingrateful idiots take it for granted..i've had enuf..i want to live my life my way.

fly away

i wish i was a leaf.. being carried away by the winds..flying across the skies..looking down on all u small little people..laughing at all your daily mundane activities you call 'very important business'..snear at how u all struggle to live each day to the fullest yet fail to treasure the ones before you..
human beings are such a joke.. ironic and dumb..

i prefer being a leaf..to be above all these..

i was a human...